Two little words that just sum up such a long time in my life. The End!
At least it is the end of the first draft, so the beginning of a whole new episode of editing work for me. In the meantime I will take a step away from that project before I start the editing, let my brain relax so I can begin with fresh, more critical eyes.
When I typed those two little words I did not expect to feel physically exhausted, I even said to my husband that I felt as if I had run a marathon. He looked at me as if I was crazy, then just said that I must be really unfit if I thought sitting and writing could make me that tired. After I had finished rolling my eyes at him, there was no way to really explain how much mental energy it has taken for me to write that many words. There were more than a few times when I thought I would never actually finish the story.
In fact, I have a sneaking suspicion that I had been procrastinating finishing my story for the last year. The only reasons that I can think as to why on earth I would do that is because I was afraid. It is a really scary thing to put yourself out into the world. No, the characters are not based on myself or people that I know, but they are still a part of me. Like the mummy bear that I can be with my boys, I feel protective of what I have created.
For a long time I put off finishing my WIP to protect myself from the criticism that may come my way when I do release my work to the public. If it wasn’t finished then there was nothing to pick apart. But that would also mean I would not be able to happily abandon my story and start another, I feel I would be disappointed with myself for doing that.
So, it was time to pull on my ‘big girl pants’ and get it done.
Only problem was that after I had recovered from the exhaustion, I then went into a slight panic attack. Now I had nothing to do!
I have been watching advice from other writers on YouTube, they all agreed that before you totally finish the first draft of one WIP, you need to spend some time thinking and planning you next. This will then stop the sudden panic of “now what!” It will help to change your focus if you keep moving forward with the next story.
Luckily, I have managed to pull out one of my many, many notebooks I have lying around our house, the start of a story I jotted down while sat waiting for music lessons to end. I looked back over what I had written on those few pages and felt the familiar excitement to develop the next leading characters and to tell their story. It will be another paranormal romance novel and I am super excited about it.
I will be updating on how the new story progresses and also how the editing will go on the next draft.