Inner dialogue- who doesn’t have it?

I am interested to know what people experience with the inner workings of the mind.

I read the other day that not everyone has an ‘inner dialog’ in their head, you know that little voice that is your very own narrator. Your internal monologue which will form words inside your head, that you can hear without actually speaking them out loud. I’m not saying that I have multiple voices or anything, before anyone calls for the men in white coats. But as a writer I have learned that, to a certain point, I do need to be many different characters all at once. if not then my characters in the story would all sound the same and be very boring to then read.

So what do the people without the voice in their head have?

I can only guess that some people experience images that pop in and out of their head, just like a slide show. Other people must just speak the words straight out of their mouth, without the inner voice having a lively debate before hand. I’m sure that we have all met that one person like this in our lifetime, one that seems to speak without any sort of filter.

Sometimes when I am writing and really getting into the “zone”, when the fingers seem to fly over the keyboard of their own accord. At these times, words can’t form quickly enough for me to type and my brain kicks into overdrive. It seems to switch modes, to watching the scenes as if I am watching a film.

Although these times are few and far between, you can bet that is the perfect time for someone to come in, interrupting me or the phone rings. But when these inspirational times hit, it is perfect for the ‘show, don’t tell’ aspect of any good story. It is when you go back to re-read these parts of pure imagery, that you then need to make sure that it is well balanced with the narrative, kept in the correct point of view and generally makes the scene and story progress in the right way. Not just all flowery, descriptive words and settings that readers will end up skimming past, as they don’t help the story to move forward with any sort of purpose.

Just like my internal voice that narrates my own mind and decides what comes out of my mouth, sometimes my mind wanders off course and ends up someplace very random. At least with writing you can go back and edit these bits, but it is much harder when you are speaking to another person and you find yourself being stared at strangely. You find yourself lost in your daydream, imagination in full swing. Maybe this is what make the best story tellers? Anyway, I digress!

If anyone who reads this, slightly off subject and a bit random blog post, has any experience with something other than an inner narrative voice, then I would love to know what you do experience instead.

E-A Jones

Finished, now what?

Two little words that just sum up such a long time in my life. The End!

At least it is the end of the first draft, so the beginning of a whole new episode of editing work for me. In the meantime I will take a step away from that project before I start the editing, let my brain relax so I can begin with fresh, more critical eyes.

When I typed those two little words I did not expect to feel physically exhausted, I even said to my husband that I felt as if I had run a marathon. He looked at me as if I was crazy, then just said that I must be really unfit if I thought sitting and writing could make me that tired. After I had finished rolling my eyes at him, there was no way to really explain how much mental energy it has taken for me to write that many words. There were more than a few times when I thought I would never actually finish the story.

In fact, I have a sneaking suspicion that I had been procrastinating finishing my story for the last year. The only reasons that I can think as to why on earth I would do that is because I was afraid. It is a really scary thing to put yourself out into the world. No, the characters are not based on myself or people that I know, but they are still a part of me. Like the mummy bear that I can be with my boys, I feel protective of what I have created.

For a long time I put off finishing my WIP to protect myself from the criticism that may come my way when I do release my work to the public. If it wasn’t finished then there was nothing to pick apart. But that would also mean I would not be able to happily abandon my story and start another, I feel I would be disappointed with myself for doing that.

So, it was time to pull on my ‘big girl pants’ and get it done.

Only problem was that after I had recovered from the exhaustion, I then went into a slight panic attack. Now I had nothing to do!

I have been watching advice from other writers on YouTube, they all agreed that before you totally finish the first draft of one WIP, you need to spend some time thinking and planning you next. This will then stop the sudden panic of “now what!” It will help to change your focus if you keep moving forward with the next story.

Luckily, I have managed to pull out one of my many, many notebooks I have lying around our house, the start of a story I jotted down while sat waiting for music lessons to end. I looked back over what I had written on those few pages and felt the familiar excitement to develop the next leading characters and to tell their story. It will be another paranormal romance novel and I am super excited about it.

I will be updating on how the new story progresses and also how the editing will go on the next draft.

E-A Jones

2021

Happy New Year, one and all!

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Most people all around the world are happy to see 2020 out the door, slam it and barricade it shut. It has been a year even a seasoned horror writer, like Steven King could not have predicted. From forest fires, to floods, to Covid, BLM and not to forget Brexit. Lets all hope that 2021 will be a kinder year.

I am not in the agreement that a New Year should mean a New You. Every woman I know will start her new diet on January 1st, I know very few who have managed to keep this resolution and see it through to the end, I know I never have. All I am going to be making as a resolution, is to keep doing what I have been doing.

I Think that this is the hardest resolution, to keep going. It is so much easier at the start, the beginning. Whether that is the new year or a project, at the beginning you have all the motivation and energy in the world to put into your endeavours. But after a while the motivation starts to wear off, life gets in the way and it seems like such hard work.

It is at this point that many give up. I have felt the same myself throughout this last year, but here I am again with renewed hope and motivation at the beginning of 2021 to make my voice heard. I am recommitted to finishing my Work In Progress and to sharing it with the world.

So when motivation is not your friend, then you have to turn to your determination to see things through and reach the end. Set yourself mini goals to get things back on track and moving in the direction your work needs to take. Luckily I have a supportive husband who reminds me every now and then, that I need to get my work finished, to stop scrolling through social media on my phone and just start writing.

So here I am on January 1st at my computer raring and ready to go.

Happy New Year to you all, and good luck with your own personal resolutions for 2021.

E-A Jones

Where has the time gone?

Now that we have made it half way through 2020, I realised I have not posted for a little while. Unfortunately like so many other people, I have had to change and adapt to the changes to our everyday life. With lockdown, came many changes, three boys to homeschool, furloughed employees, parents unable to leave their house and shopping for food is like going into battle.

All over the world there has been a level of general anxiety and panic (bulk buying loo-rolls and flour!). I found I needed to concentrate on getting the boys into a school routine first and foremost. Without them feeling anxious about the state of things in the outside world, our everyday home life could continue and find a new normality. All I can say, is that I am forever grateful that we live in a rural part of England and have been able to enjoy the countryside as we had always done so before. In fact, through all this I have noticed that people in our village have gotten to be more friendly, willing to help and to just have more time to stop and chat, then ever before.

I really hope that when things start to fully open up, that we all remember to carry on with this. Our daily walks outside, where people will stop and chat happily (whilst keeping 2 meters distance, of course) and the sense of kindness to others.

With things starting to re-open, I have had a bit more time to concentrate on my WIP (Work In Progress) and have broken through a mental barrier, where I had been stuck for quite some time. In between Math and English questions, I hope to be cracking on with the final scenes and finishing the first draft. One thing for sure, is that I will not be thinking of a change of career into teaching, I will leave that for the professionals at the boys school.

So even if 2020 has not gone to plan, it doesn’t mean that the goal has changed, only that I continue to make progress, however slowly.